monkeybard | I should think more

Really. I avoid thinking about heavy stuff as much as possible. Why give myself more reasons to be cynical? is my usual excuse. That or, Why deliberately piss myself off? But thinking shouldn't always piss one off. If I think about exterior things, I get angry. I don't think about interior things if I can help it. It's scary inside my head. Why go there if I don't have to?

I was just perusing Katherine Fugate's website, and read her entry about New Orleans, sad princes, and her visit to Seattle. Man, I admire her. Not just because she's written for television and film--that's what I envy, not what I admire. She's just so thoughtful, in the literal sense. She thinks. It seems to me that she thinks a lot, about important and introspective things. I was among the people whom she told her own personal story, and it was mind-blowing. I wonder how I'd have dealt in her position, and I don't think I would have. I think I'd've either killed someone or crawled into a hole and waited for someone to kill me. She's an amazing human being. I added her to my list of "People I Want to Be in My Next Life" at the convention that day.