Unhappy Monkey

I've planned several "self-care" activities this week as a lead-up to my high school reunion on Saturday.  The first was a hair-cut and colour yesterday.  This was meant to make me look tidy and feel pretty.  The first will have succeeded--when I can stand to look in a mirror again and dry my hair properly.  I HATE THE COLOUR OF MY HAIR RIGHT NOW.  I called at 8 this morning and left a messages that I need to come back in as soon as possible so it can be fixed.  It's so dark that I don't look like me any more.  Ihateithateithateithateithateithateit.  I don't want to look at myself.  I don't want to go where people who know me will see me.  I went to bellydance last night and everyone's first reaction was "Who's that who just walked in?"  I sobbed big baby tears twice yesterday.  I shampooed my hair six times yesterday and once again this morning.  I couldn't sleep last night despite taking Benadryl.  I know I don't look awful--the colour itself is lovely just WAY TOO FUCKING DARK--but I feel genuinely ugly.  I haven't hated my reflection this much since before I lost the 40 extra pounds I was carrying around.

ETA:  Talked to my hair man a little before noon and now have an appt. for Friday at 12:30 to have him lighten it up with some highlights.  Wonder how much that's gonna cost me?  Is it too much to hope the answer is "nothing"?  *sigh*

Silly Trick-or-Treat thingy

Snagged from jaunthie and sunkrux.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
monkeybard goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a Pit Bull Owner.
arden_baird gives you 15 softly glowing mint-flavoured gummy worms.
belfrynotes tricks you! You lose 13 pieces of candy!
carrot_cake67 gives you 6 brown lime-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
devinam gives you 13 blue evil-flavoured nuggets.
jaunthie gives you 18 light blue strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
jenboo tricks you! You lose 26 pieces of candy!
leiliaxf gives you 5 red tropical-flavoured gummy worms.
lemurkitten gives you 1 mauve peach-flavoured wafers.
ravenzanne gives you 15 light yellow root beer-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
sunkrux gives you 2 mottled green lime-flavoured nuggets.
monkeybard ends up with 36 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

At least something is going my way this week.  Even losing a total of 39 pieces of candy, I think I still came out pretty darned well.